Isn’t it? I wasn’t so sure. Before I started this new novel I had super high levels of anxiety, which is crazy, right? It’s just a bunch of words put together to tell a story. After writing three novels, I was really feeling the pressure of getting this one “perfect.” The day I set for myself to begin, my palms were sweaty. Was this the right novel for me to be writing? Is my setting right, are my characters right, is my plot going to work? Can I find the voice of the main character?
I felt the fear and did it anyway. Once I started writing, I loved it. I loved the character, I totally found her voice and the writing went quick and easy. It helped that I did my homework, with a lot of world building, plotting, outlining and character building.
It’s early times with only five days of writing and 10 000 words done, but I keep reminding myself, this is fun. F-U-N. I will probably need that reminder again in a couple of months, but what’s not fun about it? I’m making up worlds and characters, throwing crazy stuff at them and creating a story. If I have fun writing it, someone else is bound to have fun reading it. I hope. Right?
Clearly there will always be doubts as to the successful execution of the novel and the potential for it to go anywhere besides into my mom’s inbox. In the meantime, I’m having fun writing it. Worse case, I’ve entertained myself for a few months. I’m going to continue to try and focus on the FUN. Life’s short and all that. I’ll keep you posted.